Char
Fenling
Indianized
Jo
John
Kang
Karen Cheng
Kueen
Laine
Libbie
Poey
Rayner
Ryce
Spartan
Stella
Suagu

March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 May 2008 October 2008 November 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009

Nightmares keep haunting me
Making me want to flee
Hallucinations that I see
Are just part of my imagination
I keep seeing two
Which reminds me of you
Why is it so easy to fall
Back into the deep dark abyss
When it takes my all
Just to enjoy some bliss

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Today I shed a tear
Just one I allowed myself
Because you don't deserve a few
Just one I told myself
For the 5 years spent with you

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Exhilarated for a moment
Before disappointment took over
Confident for an instant
Before fear stepped in
Defenses all built high
Before walls came crumbling down
It’s weird how momentary feelings can sometimes be
Especially the positive ones
Negativity always seems to win the battle
When we constantly think that we’re never good enough
Will we ever be good enough?
Must we really lose something
In order to be able to choose what we want
Must we really fall
In order to stand tall
Must we really feel pain
In order not to live in vain
Is happiness only transient?
Life is weird
Especially when we'll never know
exactly when our last breath will be...

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I look at the sky and I see the past
I stare at the stars and wonder if they’ll last
I hear your voice and I face reality
I hang up and I cry bitterly
I keep you in my head
I hold you in my heart
I hang you around my neck
I hide you in my pocket
Habits remain
Secrets hidden
Things that I do, only things that I know
Truth or lies, I don’t wish to bother
Cushion or façade, I don’t wish to know
Out of all this mess
I still wish you all the best

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