Char
Fenling
Indianized
Jo
John
Kang
Karen Cheng
Kueen
Laine
Libbie
Poey
Rayner
Ryce
Spartan
Stella
Suagu

March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 May 2008 October 2008 November 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009

you come and go just like the wind
you appear and disappear without any warning
you pop out and fade out in a blink of the eye
usually I want you to be the one with the very last words
but no, not anymore, not this time

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Maybe it’s just me, but I believe everyone has their very own quirky habits or compulsive behaviours.

Shan’t say what’s mine but I also believe that there’s always something that irritates us easily.
For me the top 3 are
1.Eating with the mouth wide open and chewing loudly
2.Slurping a drink or soup loudly
3.Leaning against the metal pole in the MRT
Will not go on cos the list will never end. Recently my colleague has been practicing point number 2 and many times I had to resist the urge to turn to him and punch him. But of cos being the ever so gentle and loving me, I just took out my ipod and distracted myself. Phew… seriously these 3 things really distract me A LOT.

I’m confusing myself with myself lately. My thought are jumbled. Feelings mixed. Movements weird. Mental block. Physically exhausted. I think I’ve gone kuku…

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I’m standing at the crossroad
Searching for the way to go
Should I stay or should I leave
What’s my purpose
Where’s my belonging
Seeing people come and go
Will I find answers
Or will I be stranded
Hate to feel lost
Scared of the unknown
Should I step out or should I stay in

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Disappointment... in others, in herself
Goals... what's the point
Phobia… of meeting the unwanted
Scared … of stepping into B-land
Happiness… seems so far away
Sadness… all surrounding her
Smiles… just a front
Laughter… feels good
Love… no longer exists
Feels… like falling

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Perhaps I threw it all away
Perhaps I destroyed it with my own bare hands
Perhaps I deserve all that has happened
Perhaps I should carry all the guilt and blame
I hate you
But I hate myself even more

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When I was in love
I forgot how heartbreak felt like
I forgot how painful it was
When I was heartbroken
I forgot what it felt like to be in love
I forgot what it felt like to be loved
I give not expecting to receive
I love not expecting to be loved
I dream, I wish and I hope
The 10th will be over soon

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I am just a friend, a friend to you
Someone you come to
When you are not feeling good
Someone you come to
When you are feeling down
Yes you don’t care
I know you don’t
My feelings don’t matter
Does she know how you feel
Are you lying to me
Are you cushioning me
What am I?
Why can’t I hate you?
Why can’t I block you?
WHY?!?!?

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There's a difference between knowing something with your head and knowing something with your heart, and the heart always wins. Somehow this doesn't apply to everyone, I wish I was like you too...

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